scootch

[lacyunderall]

Last night, my kitty Scooter (aka Number One, P. Scootch McGootch, Flopper Kitty, Chirper) did something he's never done before, and that was lay on my belly and creep his way up until he was almost at my face. He lay there for almost an hour and we whispered to each other, and I rubbed him all over and smoothed his little clown face, and I told him about when he was a kitten and he almost died from a break-away collar that didn't break away when he was hanging from the Christmas tree, and how I was glad his tail was getting fluffy again after the stress of our latest move, and how proud I was that he's there to defend us by attacking the vicious armchair downstairs whenever he's let out of our bedroom, and how he's Number One because his brother is stupid and I never really wanted anyone but him, because of his little droopy eye.

When I got ready for bed tonight, he was laying on the sofa on the unfolded clothes pile, and I went to pet him and give him hell because he's a bum, and he was already stiff from being dead for a couple of hours. He looks like he went to sleep and didn't wake up. I don't know how he died, or why. He was only four. He helped me stay clean and sober. He fell down in front of me and rolled on his back when I walked by because he's a Flopper Kitty and wanted belly rubs. He gave me little Chirper meows with a question mark at the end when he wanted something, and would lead me to the food bowl when it was getting dangerously low. He'd panic whenever I sneezed and come running to find out what was wrong.

Max is looking for him now, and I can't stop crying. So I'm going to post two of my favorite pictures of him and try to go to sleep and then cry some more tomorrow because he was one of my kids.

Comments

[jonthedull.livejournal.com]

Oh my god! I'm sooo sooo sorry Donna! *many hugs* This is so sad :-( I'm sure Scooter knew how much he was loved. *hugs* This stuff sucks sooo much. *hug*

[dannster.livejournal.com]

Kind of cool he said goodbye before he left.
So long Scoot, we hardly knew ya.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

he was very sturdy.

[jonthedull.livejournal.com]

I've made a donation in P. Scootch McGootch's name to The Elephant Sanctuary in Tennessee. It's a big refuge where old, sick, or needy elephants can live out their lives in peace, health, and with love from other elephants and the people that care for them. I know elephants aren't cats, but hopefully Scooter wound't have minded helping out some much bigger very distant cousins.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, jon. that was very sweet of you.

[soopageek.livejournal.com]

Aww, I'm sorry Donna. I know all too well how easy it is to get really attached to a kitty. After a while, they're like family. Sounds like he had a good life and went peacefully. Y'can't ask for more than that.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thanks, lin.

[welfy.livejournal.com]

What a beautiful cat. I'm so sorry you've lost Scooter. :^(

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, erin.

[setdragonfriend.livejournal.com]

Aw, sorry. He was a darling. He will be missed. I believe Bast will take good care of him.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you.

[lo-pan.livejournal.com]

Aw, I'm so sorry Donna. I understand how hard it is, since it was this time last year that my Shao Lin left me. That was the first and only time Kat has seen me bawl my eyes out like a little baby. There's an image for you.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thanks, b. i feel kind of stupid for being so torn up over this. i can't help feeling like this is a dress rehearsal for when my folks go, and i'm doing really badly.

[lisalicious.livejournal.com]

Oh Donna, I'm so sorry.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thanks, lisa.

[cider.livejournal.com]

Lots of love, Donna. I'm so sorry.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thanks, kat.

[bizetsy.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Donna. Scooter was an awesome cat--I love d the time I spent with him.

It's wonderful that you told him so many things before he died. Even if he couldn't understand your words, I'm sure he knew you loved him very much.

xoxoxoxo

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thanks for taking care of him, aunt betsy. he was pretty wonderful.

[panfrieda.livejournal.com]

oh sweetie!! :( i'm so sorry. *infinite amount of hugs*

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, aly.

[amazingfishboy.livejournal.com]

There is a huge empty hole in this house without you, Scooter.

[the-lucky-nun.livejournal.com]

would you please nuzzle on D and Max for me, since I'm stuck here in Lawrence? with extra rib-crushing hugs for D? thank you.

[jenrieshka.livejournal.com]

as beautiful of a flopper kitty as i've ever seen

i'm so sorry you've lost him

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, sweetie.

[the-lucky-nun.livejournal.com]

he loved you so much he wanted you to be with him before he died. that's a lot of love. I hope my cats love me that much. I'm crying too, now.

xoxo

[the-lucky-nun.livejournal.com]

p.s. lying quietly on a pile of comfy, clean laundry that smells like its people is probably the top-rated way a kitty would choose to go.

[justamy.livejournal.com]

oh no....donna, that sucks. i'm so sorry. hopefully pablo and scooter are playing together wherever they are.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

oh, i hope pablo looks out for him.

[lolliejean.livejournal.com]

Oh D. : (
I'm so sorry to hear that you've lost your Scooter the baby love cat. That's a big old owie and makes me cry too. I'm glad you had that special time together before he died.

xoxxo ~ Lori

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, lori.

[videoleslie.livejournal.com]

That's heartbreaking. I'm glad you got to spend some quality time together before he died. I'm so sorry.

[lu-shines.livejournal.com]

oooooooooooooooooooh no, i'm so sooo sorry d. so sorry. i hope he's found mountains of catnip on the other side.

*huge hug*

[zuzus-petals.livejournal.com]

Oh I'm so sorry!

He must have known. At least you're last time together was good. Still very sad though. I'm so sorry.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

i think he knew too. thank you.

[icecat.livejournal.com]

Oh, that's so sad! He had to have known. I'm sorry for your loss, sweetie. :(

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, tashi.

[razorart.livejournal.com]

Oh, Donna, I am SO SORRY for your loss. God, how horrible it must have been to find him that way ...

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

i knew before i touched him but i had to feel him anyway. i petted him some, and it was kind of horrible because he wasn't *there* anymore. thanks, joi.

[lian-croftshaw.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I'm crying like a baby right now. I can't imagine losing one of my cats. While I was reading your post my cat Monkeybutt was on the kitchen counter and that is a huge no no but I couldn't even make him get down. All of a sudden he was just too cute to correct.

Sorry mama.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

it's kind of horrible. it makes me not want to get more pets. this is hard. thanks, lian.

[possumcowboy.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear it. My Mr. Winston Kitty is 15 years old, and showing signs of feline diabetes. I've had him since I was 9 months sober; a lifetime ago. He's been with me through relationships starting and ending. My heart goes out to you.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

i got him with almost exactly the same time sober. it's not fair; i was supposed to have at least ten more years with him. when mr. winston kitty goes, try to be holding him. i think that would help.

thank you.

[veenven.livejournal.com]

OMG! I'm so sorry Donna.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you.

[barefootmetal.livejournal.com]

Donna, I'm sorry to hear about Scooter. I'm glad you posted a pic of him. Such a sweetheart, wanting to be with you. He sure loved you. You're a great momma, taking the time to make sure he knew that you loved him back.

[lacyunderall.livejournal.com]

thank you, sweetie.